Rock Bottom

Honestly, the most important person in my life is Jessie. I've become so focused on him to where he's basically the only thing I have now thanks to the fact that I never try to make time for anyone else. When he's not around, I isolate myself from the world around me. I have no close friends. I don't leave the house without him. I used to have amazing friends that I wouldn't trade for anything...until I met Jessie. So on the days when I can't be with him, I feel worthless and like no one cares about me. This is really unhealthy, I know. But maybe it's worth it. :/

...

if you were blind, would you know of your beauty?
:/

Spring Break

I haven't been on here in like a month. Soooo...news? I don't have any. Oh! Yesterday was my 5th month with Jessie. <3 It's great. He's been here all week with me. But he's always here so whatever. Umm..my bathroom's getting re-modeled right now. YAY! And I'm going to buy Twilight at 12:00 tonight. Sweet. Yea. Idk what else..

>=/

Hmmm...
I've been getting pretty annoyed with everyone lately.
Almost everyone.
Mostly people at school.
Eh...
But anyway.

I think these colors are pretty. (:
On a positive note, I'm generally happy.
I've realized that Jessie is the best thing that's ever happened to me.
He makes me all :D
It's nice...

Oh, and it's our 4th month.
I can tell this is going to last.
(:

The Love of My Life. xD

Kristi
is
a
big
gay
lezbo
whore.


But I love her.

My Mother Made it Obvious:

I now know for a fact that I will never be successful in life. I will never go to college, have a career, and most likely will never have an actual family of my own. Hell, it'll be a miracle if I even get through high school. My grades are shit. That's the basic problem. If I don't get decent grades, I can't get into college. If I don't get into college, I won't have a good-paying job. If I don't get the job, then I can't support a family. What am I supposed to do with my life? I find it pointless. :(

The Kid Who Saved Me (:

Jessie Barry Dees

This is the boy that deserves everything from me.
The boy that stepped in when I lost hope.
The boy that proved me wrong when I thought it was over.
The boy that can read me with just a single glance.
The boy that makes the worst day suddenly seem perfect.
The boy who accepts me for who I am.
The boy who puts up with me.
The boy that I love to argue with.
The boy I'll always turn to.
The boy who never leaves me behind.
The boy that can kiss me and make it all better.
The boy who changed me.
The boy that has my heart.

Baby, I owe you big time.
<3